April 17th 2019


As I write to you, today it is April 17th 2019.  Today is significant for me as it is my 100th straight day of Ceremony this year. On this morning, after waking at 2:30am and completing my morning preparations for the day, I chose to listen to Yo-Yo Ma play the Unaccompanied Cello Suite No.1 in G Major by Johann Sebastian Bach.

The reason I chose this solo cello piece is obvious to me, it blends my love of sound with my love of the Cello. I find there is delicate and delicious appreciation that comes with any excellent sound, which speaks of a synergetic relationship between the instrument and artist, intention and movement.  As Yo-Yo Ma played I could feel him listening to the instrument sustain notes deep within the wood and the body of the cello, and then he layered other tones upon them. In my mind’s eye I see the bow caressing the strings, allowing them to sing out as he moved to other strings, exciting them into song. I appreciated that, as a solo artist, there is nowhere to hide, and whatever he created would be applied to him.

I anticipate that the cello played was Yo-Yo Ma’s famed Davido Stradivarius, previously owned by British cellist Jacqueline du Pré.  I say “anticipate” because I read that though she loved the cello, she found it had some unique tendencies that made it hard to play at times.  Yo-Yo Ma recognized that it was a Baroque style cello and plays only Baroque pieces on it. It further suggests to me that Yo-Yo Ma saw the original divine design of the cello and embraced its origins and as such a new synergetic relationship was formed. The cello is truly a piece of art, crafted by famed master Luthier Antonio Stradivari of Italy in 1712.  It is and has been appreciated as an incredible gift of sound. So this cello, created by the hands of a master, becomes in itself a master, and in the hands of another master, this piece of mastery, this cello, is exalted and honoured. Whew, what a sentence. Now the importance of all of this is that the Cello Suite No.1 in G was written or so it’s believed, in 1717-1723, during the Baroque era. Yo-Yo Ma’s cello needs a master to woo those delicate harmonics from its perfection. This morning he did so.

To bring things into perspective, I played the cello for years when I was younger and I was pretty good. I wasn’t 1st chair, at my best I was 3rd.  Back then I had many passions, yet my love of the cello helped me to develop a full and rich appreciation for a cello played well, to see and hear what is possible in the hands of a Master. Since that time I have also developed an appreciation of the sounds of truth, spoken joyfully or less than so by an incredible creation of Divine design, through the words that are shared. This ability to recognize the gift in another, to stand in amazement, bearing witness as someone shares and develops his or her amazing talent, inspires me. For I know that within each one of us, there is a Master, our Higher Self, waiting to be expressed.

Here, is where we come to the point, you are a sacred instrument created by a Divine Master. You are also a Master consciousness here to embrace life. I believe you are infinitely greater than the illusion you once believed was true. I appreciate my role is to help the intention and the expression, instrument and master, see beyond what seems like a blind spot, a disconnect. It may help to know that from my perspective, as Divine light radiates from pure consciousness it comes in contact with different levels of awareness until finally it meets this physical realm. Within that radiant light are many strands of separate consciousness and one of those strands is you. The point where that consciousness meets the physical world is what you call your body, your sacred instrument. Our Higher Self is a point just before the light meets the physical and it understands why you are here and why now. When embraced, it becomes our inner knowing that offers insight into the physical part of our life. Here in the physical, as light meets our realm it fragments, very similar to pure white light passing through a prism. To us the coloured strands are noticeable (chakras) and they kind of make sense, yet on the other side of the prism the light is crystal clear. This is why each morning, as the sun rises, wherever you are, I meet with you to seek the clarity on the other side of the crystal, to ultimately embrace a truth about you. It is here that the inner master shares the perfect harmonics of truth that resonate throughout the physical self. This is why every person who’s attended 40Days is encouraged to recognize their personal mastery and let it sing out, to be both Master and the Instrument of Peace in their life, and then share with others.

Lastly, the best part of this morning’s pre-call preparations was Yo-Yo Ma and the Davido completed their dance of sound leaving me only a few seconds of silence, delicious rapture, before my chime told me to start my daily calls.

Perfect, I thought. I’m ready.

As I write you now I can still hear Yo-Yo Ma’s cello singing in my mind. It is reminding me of something quite profound, something amazing. Oh yes I remember,

We live in amazing times.




Light will always find us.


I have enjoyed many Christmas' on my own, especially after experiencing the first one. I recognize how, to many, it may seem odd. Whatever perceived hardships I initially endured, the benefits have outweighed any perceived loss. Being alone offered me, without compromise, a wondrous truth about how to celebrate love and my life on my own. Which is fascinating because I am sure that was not my initial thoughts.

I concede that by most people’s observations, my life is different than the norm. Whether I live it accurately or with problems, my life has been full of doing things my way. It always has been that way. So it was no surprise to me when I learned that, as an Aries, I come to this earthly plane with a mission, an opportunity to share a great Piscean knowing without being distracted. It also means that to live my life fully, I must learn to find the middle ground in relationships. I must embrace my Libra life. Yet, there I was sitting alone on Christmas.

I also believe that in order to love someone truly you must be able to love yourself fully. In order to do that, longing for another or another place seemed to be counter productive. Still I found it to be an important part of the process. It was an open door unlocked by a simple question. “Why Me?”

As it is Christmas, it may help to know that, while I was baptized, I was raised non denominational. My parents believed I must be allowed to decide what I believe in and yes I’m still exploring. So as a child, my earliest musing of Christmas was focused on presents. I was quite honestly dreaming for months on what I would receive. Isn’t it funny how many years later my presents would change to presence and thus the point of this story.

Finding opportunity in a pit of “why me?” seemed very optimistic. It is what happened though. On a day of peace, of love and Divine Union, I chose to revisit what the gift of Christmas was to me.  I sat quietly, free of the distractions of others or gift comparisons. While the rest of the world was busy and was able to explore my own God gifts, how I could receive and how of would share. In my solitary meditation, I explored what is important in life.

Here are some of the things that were revealed. That whether atheist or not, mutual love and truth solve every single problem. Being present with someone, listening and caring is one of the greatest gifts you can ever give. Being vulnerable is empowering, and with nothing, nothing can be taken from me. It also showed me how much it encouraged me to give. I mean really give, not things, rather to share my life with people and welcome theirs. To rake a yard, shovel a driveway, clean a pool, mow a lawn for people who can’t. This is nothing new, right? They seem like good Christian values, no? I also learned that in order to be a good Christian you must be a good Jew. The light of Christ exists within all of us and Jesus would have learned this through his Jewish Mother, Mary.  So I also fell in Love with a religion, listened to them, heard their teachings. Then I revisited the celebration of Diwali’s light over darkness. It turns out there is a whole world of people loving and celebrating. Turns out I was never alone. 

I now celebrate Christmas, the day, as a celebration of Love. The revelry occurs if I am alone, with a loved one, loved ones or friends. I choose to be present at Christmas with those I celebrate with. I also invite you to consider experiencing a Christmas, Hanukkah, Diwali or any event throughout the year on your own. Find you, Love you, witness the celebration of life and then see how you are a wondrous gift to us all. Then you can remember that the light within us will always find us because it never left.

Costa Rica


A wonderful opportunity has presented itself, Costa Rica.  If you had asked me 5 months ago where I would be in August I would have said Nepal. 2 months ago would have been Slovenia. One of the blessings of being flexible is having an awareness that something will always present itself. We are really excited to explore our new surroundings.  Located just outside of Ojochal is the retreat Bali Rica, our home for the next few months, equipped with Yoga Shala, Stone circle, and Labyrinth.

A Beach within walking distance is minutes from the National Whale Marine Park.
It sounds like paradise. 

Once we have become acquainted and comfortable with our new surroundings we would like to set up retreats there. For now, we have so many plans to be brought to life and this time away offers us the ability to dream and find clarity in our visions.

The monthly Newsletters will still be sent out regularly and I am of course still available for personal ceremony. For those of you exploring the Tree, time can still be found for supportive calls. I will be leaving just after this July's vision quest and while no firm dates have been established, the owners have made space until mid November.

While Nepal is still on, it is now slated for "Later".  This adventure in Costa Rica also allows me time to start the "Walk my Path" Nepal Blog.